Fr. Larry Gillick, S.J., had an accident as a child
that left him blind. In 1982 I had the opportunity to accompany him to South
Korea where we directed retreats. I
served as his physical eyes and he served as my spiritual eyes. I led him
around for daily walks and he walked me through the Spiritual Exercises of St. Ignatius. He served as my mentor and
supervisor as I helped direct people in the Exercises.
I thought of Fr. Gillick today because the Mass
readings are about blindness, both physical and spiritual.
In the First
Book of Samuel 16, God sends the prophet Samuel to anoint one of Jesse’s
sons as the next king of Israel. Samuel judges the sons by their physical
appearance and none of the ones he thinks he is sent to anoint turns out to be
God’s choice. God does not judge by appearance but “looks into the heart.” Thus the youngest (perhaps smallest)—David—is
anointed and “the spirit of the Lord rushed upon” him.
We tend to judge people by their appearance—how they
look and act. God looks into the heart.
I’ve often thought that if we knew just 1/8 of what a person has gone through
in his or her life—the pains and sorrows, the challenges and rejections—we would
be much more compassionate toward them.
We often fall into the trap of comparing ourselves
to others. It’s been said, “compare and despair.” Why?
One reason is because we compare how we feel on the inside to how they
look on the outside. They look happy and
attractive; they seem to “have it all together.” We think: “if I had what they have, I’d be
happy too!” We get jealous. Such comparisons
are unfair and end up in negativity.
Or, we build ourselves up at others’ expense. Like
the Pharisees in today’s Gospel (John 9:
1-41), we see others as sinners and think, “well, at least I’m not like
so-and-so.”
Sin darkens our spiritual sight. It blinds us. Because of sin we focus on the negative in
ourselves, in others, in our world. If I
were to tell people ten things about themselves, nine of them very positive and
complimentary, and one of them critical, what would they go away remembering
and obsessing over? The negative. Because of sin we tend to see the glass as
half empty rather than half full and so we end up complaining rather than
giving thanks.
We need to have our blindness healed. We need better spiritual sight. In the Eucharist Jesus gives us his Body and
Blood to transform our hearts so that we might see ourselves and others as God
sees us. Because we are anointed in
Baptism with sacred chrism, the Holy Spirit “rushes” upon us, giving us wisdom
and insight, warmth and light.
So how does God see us and how should we see
ourselves and others? As beloved. Precious enough to die for. Pope Francis put it this way in his homily on
Divine Mercy Sunday in 2013: “For God we
are not numbers, we are important. Indeed we are the most important thing to him.
Even if we are sinners, we are what is closest to his heart.”
Draw near to that heart, the Sacred Heart of Jesus,
and see yourself and others embraced by it.
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